I recently went to New York and it was a lot of fun! This is actually a really important trip for me because the first time I went to NYC was summer 2012, right after I graduated from college. I was in a really bad place in my life–I hated everything, I was annoyed at everyone and I didn’t appreciate the great opportunity I got at all 😦 . This time, I was going for Kweli 19, a children’s writer and illustrator conference at CUNY Graduate Center. I signed up for the conference on literally the deadline!
Seven years later, I’m at a point in my life where I actually WANT to be there because I finally found a career path that would require me to be in New York, book publishing. But there are a lot of red flags and anxiety associated with that too:
- What if I don’t like NYC? the city life is too chaotic for me.
- What if I don’t make any friends there?
- What if publishing isn’t right for me? just like teaching
Going there was kind of a test run for myself. It’s sort of like NYC is this boss I have to battle. If I face it for two days and I actually like it, maybe I could actually work and live there. In the end, I’m so glad I went. I loved Sunnyside, Queens, the place I stayed at. I loved Kweli obviously!!!!!! I loved going to McNally Jackson, Mighty Bowl, and thisrolled ice cream place in Chinatown. It was to be honest, fun and manageable. This means everything for an anxious person like me!!!!
No matter what happens, I think I can do it. I can make a life for myself in NYC if I get the chance. After everything I have gone through in teaching, this was going to be doable and definitely more fun.