Shadowscapes Day 10: The Fool

Today’s card is The Fool.

It’s interesting getting the major arcana because the cards feel really witchcrafty. I got The Fool, which seems bad, and according to The Shadowscapes Companion, it means:

“There is an obvious foolishness to the terrible plunge you may experience, or else a wild spirit of adventure and great faith and knowledge in what can and will bear you up and guide you through the times to come.”

Tarot deck creators represent The Fool in many different ways, and the way Stephanie Pui-Mun Law represented him/her as a woman standing on a ledge, held up by doves and ribbons, and about to take a step and plunge into something terrible. I have a huge fear of heights, and it makes me feel like a coward sometimes, to be honest. I don’t know if taking a leap is foolish or not. I feel like I have no choice but to take a leap and try to survive sometimes, not because of a “wild spirit of adventure,” but because it’s my best choice for survival.

The Fool is an interesting role to play! I’m sure I have been foolish at many points in my life.

Shadowscapes Day 9: Five of Wands

Today’s card is Five of Wands.

“When gathered together, these minor obstructions become an overwhelming wall to overcome, but take heart and let the adrenaline awaken body and mind to rise to the challenge. Answer that challenge not with despair but with renewed vigor. Appreciate the unknown strengths that are drawn forth when faced with difficulties.”

Five projects I need to complete:

  1. Swag website – write copy
  2. Mochi magazine – edit articles
  3. Rising Leaders – finish application
  4. Stop the Recall – make calls
  5. Sister District – make calls

Not to mention projects I want to do for myself:

  1. Write and submit books reviews
  2. Draw comics
  3. Memorize songs on viola
  4. Make psych ward greeting cards

It really speaks to me that these are hard to do and take a lot of energy. But I believe in myself. There’s going to be a lot of obstacles but I am confident that I can overcome them. I hope I get my new CalOptima insurance card soon so I can start subbing, and I pray that I get the adult teaching job.