My random thoughts

These are my random thoughts, written in a guest room at an Airbnb at 3am in Queens, NY! This moment in my life is never going to happen again. Like all moments.

-Less than a week ago, I wasn’t going to come to NY. I’m so glad I decided to on a whim, to come to Kweli 19!

-Sometimes (actually, everyday) I miss Ray very very much.

-Every day for the past 2 years, I have wanted to feel how I did the spring and summer of 2017. I miss the sense of pure freedom.

-There is no better feeling than being released and feeling completely free. It’s like being born and your life begins again.

-There is a very specific moment in May 2017 when I felt that, the day after I started my leave and knew I would never have to go back to the school I was teaching at.

-The first thing I did that day was read.

-And do yoga, cook, order pizza, spend time with Ray, go to painting class, spending time with Claudia and Elaine, and do a bunch of things that I’ve always wanted to do.

-That is my favorite life and I want space and time to be able to do that again.

-The radiator in my room is gurgling like crazy right now.

-It’s very redeeming and healing to attempt something that you failed at before.

-Some paths are formed by going from A to B. Others are formed by a series of doors closing until a path emerges. – Ransom Riggs

-At the lowest point of my life, maybe just 3 or 4 months ago, I was just “a skeleton with a beating heart” – Tahereh Mafi. I have begun fleshing out that skeleton now.

-I had a nice chat with my host last night ^^ . She is so cool!

-I wonder if there is a way to make money from my love of reading.

-I have wonderful friends and I’m proud of how strong I am.

Beachwalk @ Knott’s

I finally went to Knott’s again! My favorite area is the Beachwalk area with HangTime, Wipeout, Surfside Glider and all of the surfing themed rides. The palm trees and yellow, blue, and coral color schemes are the best. I also finally went on Supreme Scream again, twice!!!!! I am on a mission to go on all of the rides.

(It is still super scary to me but I think the more I go on it, the less scary it will become. It is like drawing blood. It still hurts every time, but it becomes less scary. I actually have a deep personal reason for going on the ride, and to me, it relates to empathizing with students on the first day of school, and overcoming your fears and anxieties in a variety of ways. Thank you theme parks for offering safe and scary sensations for us!)